I Would Die For That

PCOS

Well yesterday I had my fertility appointment and I had a wonderful experience for the most part.

The day started off crazy when I could not find the place funny its just upstairs from the urgent care center I have gone too haha!
I met my Doc and he is a great doctor, some how my appointment time got mixed up and he still took me at the time I came in!
He was all about starting me out on some drugs to jump start my period and get this ball rolling!

My ultra sound was the best part of my whole thing... I had to get an internal ultrasound and I look at the tech holding this long thing that looked like a dildo and then she pulled out a condom and covered it! Its a DILDO CAM! I could not stop giggling!

Well after I talked to the Doc he told me that I have PCOS
Polycystic ovary syndrome (say "pah-lee-SIS-tik OH-vuh-ree SIN-drohm") is a problem in which a woman’s hormones are out of balance. It can cause problems with your periods and make it difficult to get pregnant. PCOS may also cause unwanted changes in the way you look. If it is not treated, over time it can lead to serious health problems, such as diabetes and heart disease.

I was really upset at first and now I'm glad that I know the problem and that I have a plan on trying to fix it.

It makes since to me all my problems lately, I'm hoping to get my hormones regulated and I can get pregnant and then once I have my baby I can lose all the weight that I have been gaining in this last 6 months :)

I've decided to be positive about everything and take this one day at a time!
It my new motto! Positive!

Last day

Today is bitter sweet, I'm excited to give Eli's (the baby I watch) mom the V-day gift I made for her!
But I also know today is my last day with him :(
Its been 4 weeks with him and I've really enjoyed all the time I've had with him, makes me want my own even more!
Having him around has been less painful I've honestly kept my mind off my own infertility and have just had fun and stayed busy :)
I'll be sad not having him around anymore but it will be nice to sleep in again haha!

But I do know more than anything that I want to get certified in home childcare, and watch one or two babies.
If I knew I could do that full time I would go ahead and convert our spare bedroom into a nursery and get more toys!

I just need to start the steps!

I guess that will be my next step, maybe even set up a mommy's day out for mom's of deployed members where once a week I'll take a baby for a day at no charge.

so I can give back and make all at the same time! :)

I hope I can get going with this! :)

5 months later

And still no baby and still no baby on the way.
I've now been off birth control for 14 months, and have had 2 never ending cycles haha (89 days 0.o)

Now starting a new chapter, we are going threw fertility treatments haha!

I know God has a plan for me and maybe its to learn that nothing comes when you want it but only when He sees the time is right!

I pray for the heath of my future child weather its from me or someone else.

I pray that I'm on the path to being a good mother and wife, I love the life I have!

I would love to be more profound but I just have nothing great to say, I just speak my mind

Have a great day :)